My plan to quit smoking, comes like pretty much everything else, on impulse. When the time is right. it strikes me. A fairly haphazard way of living life, but it's my way. And I am not going to make any apologies for when things don't work out. There is no point, I will just punish myself by hitting the cigarettes again. I was just about to write 'fags', which is short for cigarette around here. But I remembered that in certain countries it is a very non-pc word for homosexual. My sister-in-law's sister is a lesbian, so I really don't want to come across as a gay-hater. She is also called Fiona which means when my nieces go to school and talk about their auntie Fiona being gay, well you get my drift, some confusion may arise as to which Auntie Fiona they are talking about. And considering that I am the only Auntie Fiona in living in the vicinity, I am assuming it is assumed to be me. I wonder how many hot-dates I have missed out on due to this confusion.
Imagine. Jonny Depp's identical twin brother Donny Depp, escapes from Mrs Depp's basement, where he has been chained since infancy. He happens upon a child of about 11 or so who happens to know my niece. I am walking by at that precise moment. He sees me and falls head-over-heels in love. "Who is that beautiful vision, She doeth look like my soul mate."
"Ah..." says little Gertrude, "I am sorry to have to break it to you sir, that doeth be my friends Auntie Fiona, The Lesbian." "Oh, my heart doth break!" Exclaims Donny.
The only good thing about this scene, is that I won't know a thing about it. And so my life goes on....
Just to be clear the '40 day to infinity' refers to a comment someone made about me 'giving up smoking for lent.' Yes, I will be doing that but it doesn't end when lent ends. And, yes, the post does drift off onto a different topic, pretty hastily...all my writing has become stream of consciousness since I have quit. Hopefully, this will correct itself as time goes on... although at this point in my nicotine withdrawal, all I can afford to care about right now is NOT SMOKING.
ReplyDeleteI tried many times to quit before I finally succeeded. It is a very hard thing to do; but very rewarding once it's been accomplished.
ReplyDeleteThe worst part is the mental depression. The physical withdrawal is unpleasant, but bearable. You can do it, if you can control your mind and not listen to that voice that 's saying "This just isn't worth it." It is worth it. If you can go ten days, the physical symptoms will be long gone. Hang in there. Give yourself this great gift: you deserve it.
When I was a kid it was customary to give up something for Lent. Usually it was candy, gum or something sweet. And it was hard. I've replaced those addictions with Balkan folk dancing, music, chocolate, and weird food, fortunately most of those are relatively benign as addictions go. And I didn't give up sex for Lent :) I've gone past that and given up religion instead.
ReplyDeleteI've smoked but never been addicted to cigarattes, and I consider myself very fortunate, since friends of mine told me that's the hardest addiction to quit. And I lost a friend last year because he died of complications related to cigarette smoking.
Fiona, the best of luck in conquering your addiction to cigarettes. Please keep us posted on this blog, and as always, you have my love and support in this. You will be doing something good for yourself.
@Rodak: kudos to you for kicking the habit!
BTW the confusion between you and the other Fiona (the lesbian) was quite funny....
Many thanks to the two of you for supporting my quitting the habit :) I actually thought i had posted a reply...but obviously not.
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