alone in this.

I wish i felt like running

every time i see him coming

but there is some kind of magnet

pulling me towards making another hash of it.

The animosity is obvious and hurtful

as he thinks i do it purposeful

i'd say it was a misunderstanding

but the thing is so long standing,

that what ever i say

is taken up in the wrong way.

Now i will have to continue to ignore

it's not so much that i am disliked, i abhor

as that once we were friends

and to that end, i must continue to pretend

that none of this matters,

and although my ego is shattered

i am obliged to continue to self-defend

and force myself to believe

there will be an end to this.

don't get me wrong

i do understand it, but if it was me

i would have taken a handle on it

and played the forgiveness card

or at least opened a window

for a talk, but however it remains

that i must continue to walk alone in this.

alone in this.